Mind over matter.
Which one really matters?
I quit getting mad, and that just makes you madder.
Now that I’m gone you want me back,
But I’m on to the next chapter.

Mind over matter, or matter over mind?
I was doing so well without you by my side.
I was miles ahead, I was living a successful life.
You grabbed a hold of my hand, and held on tight.
The weight of the two of us became too much for me to carry.
I started slipping down to your level, slowly but steadily.
Instead of hearing my cries, opening your eyes, and helping me climb
You continued to put your wants and needs above mine.
I feel you tug at my legs as you pull me down.
I look around, and realize how close I am to the ground.
I should have let you go when I had the chance to.
Now I feel trapped in this relationship I have with you.

Mind versus matter, man it just depends.
I remember how much I adored you when we were just friends.
Everytime I spoke, you would listen with good intent
Not just tune in when I said keywords that you could bend.
My heart can’t forget how you used to act, back when you acted like a man.
You held down a job, and had big plans.
Swore to me that you were ready to settle down.
Post said it best and damnit he was correct, not saying I couldn’t rewrite it better
But I’m not trying to become a songwriter’s threat.
Quote unquote,
“It’s too late to turn this shit around,
You only held me down when you wanted me to drown.”

Matter wins the battle, my mind finally caught on to the pattern.
My brain is no longer scattered, now granted
I’ve always been hard headed and stubborn, slow to give up until I know I’ve done everything I could’ve.

I can confidently say I know that now, both my heart and my head finally understand
How much I have lost since our relationship began.
The trust that I lost, for my best friend – turned ex boyfriend
The pride that I lost, because of the things that he did
The friends that I lost, because I always chose him
The money that I lost, because he wanted it to spend.

Not close to finished with this list, but the worst loss of all is,
I lost the ability to hope for the best, and resist giving in to the doubts.
I no longer look for the good in people, I can only recognize the evil.
If I get the slightest idea that something foul
Is or could be coming around
Instead of sticking around, and giving out chances
I just reroute, scratch the whole plan and
Cut ties with anyone for any reason at all, go ghost on them like Casper.
The answer is clear, mind loses to matter.
The worst thing this relationship did, was take a girl with a big heart, naive to the cruel world,
And adapt her.